That’s right, I said it.
I’m tired. I have stresses. I worry.
Lately Facebook (in my experience) has done nothing but multiply those feelings X 2. Or by 20 some days.
Why am I adding to it by mindlessly scrolling through to read about everyone else’s issues, bad days, upsetting news updates and endless views on the problems in the world? It’s like I can’t help myself, it’s like an addiction. Or wait…it IS an addiction.
It wasn’t always like this.
Facebook used to be refreshing! It used to be a place to reconnect with old friends and to share pictures. A platform of sharing that existed in small doses here and there, or when someone prompted me to check for an update.
Sure it still does these same things now. But for some reason now, whatever has changed in me….(ie: Facebook addiction) I don’t need a reminder to check, because I will have most likely seen it already. But not without also filtering through a plastered wall of politically incorrect memes and jaded views of opinion after opinion of what’s right and wrong in society, splattered through and taking over my news feed like a virus.
Of course there is an option to “unfollow” these negative pages and people, which I have done. Believe me. I have tried to weed out the madness. But it all somehow still oozes through the cracks.
Recently I took a break. Just for the weekend, from all social media to see how it made me feel.
It felt fucking great.
I had reduced my anxiety by 100%, my overthinking and comparing of myself to others…nearly diminished.
Now don’t get me wrong, I love me some social media. I wouldn’t have to do a weekend of “social fasting” or openly admit that I may have a problem with it, if I didn’t.
So, is it really worth it?
To put myself through the dribble? To glaze over and conform, mindlessly clicking and liking and sharing.
But alas, here I am. Most likely sharing this to my few readers on…Facebook! Damn.
In a way, I say “Thank you, Facebook”. For helping me be able to share my thoughts in a helpful way, for keeping me connected to family and friends. For making me laugh at funny videos and jokes.
But if you find yourself saying “Fuck Facebook” like I do sometimes, or if you feel your anxiety levels and blood pressure rise with every news feed scroll. Then please, I encourage you to take a break for a while. Even if it is just for a day. I promise you it will be okay. You will not die from lack of screen stimulation. I hope.
So…where does this leave us?
Well, if there is anything to take away from this post, let it at least be this:
Facebook will keep you busy, it will give you something to do. But it will not kiss you good night, or hug you tightly. It will not smile at you when you walk in the room, or laugh at your jokes. It will not fill whatever void you have inside, or solve your problems.
So next time you put your reality on the back burner for time spent on this social media tool. Remember what your pushing away in return.
~peace, love & Fresh Breath